Limits

Today I have defaulted back to protective mode. Accusations run wild in this game of life that is played and I do not want to play. My white flag has been on the ground for months now. I know my crimes and I know my faults and I will not by any means pretend like I don't have any for the sake of making myself feel better. I too was so busy giving my everything including my heart, my home, my children, my family and my time to one person and the one I strung along got nothing, absolutely nothing. Today I stand accused of having committed worse crimes. I have punished myself and my family enough and will not do this anymore. This time I am not devastated as before, yes I have cried for the last two days not out of sadness out of anger instead. I have been walking away for awhile now and now it is time to run. As soon as I am able and get part of my life back that I have been missing all the puzzle pieces will be joined and the result will be amazing. It's time to hit the road. 10/4