Mirror

I am so fat now that I am embarrassed to be seen. I take my medication to keep myself from being depressed yet being so heavy now is making me feel so bad. Tonight I was supposed to go participate in things where I would be in public and I can't because I am feeling so ugly. I am walking again and I know I won't see any results anytime soon I am just so frustrated. I wish the darkness would liberate me. Maybe I should start weaning myself off the meds so I won't depend on them anymore. I won't stop them immediately because I have tried that before and it didn't go well. I will let you know how it goes. My self esteem was already down so I guess misery loves company.