Abuse

The word is double edged and there are people out there who will strip you out of your own skin with their words, if you let them. Tonight the words were flowing towards me like arrows attempting to pierce my flesh.
Wave after wave kept coming at me with blame and anger leading the force. Must have been a slow and lonely night where these attempts were coming from and I guess I am now an easy target. I'm not a fighter, never have been which is why it has always been so easy for people to hurt me physically and emotionally although I do fight back sometimes with words and then am remorseful well only with one person because it (he) was personal. Tonight I read them as they came in and then deleted them. The last one had fire, fangs and death all sprinkled with sarcasm. I'm assuming the "old" me would have reacted because I would have allowed this person to hurt me. Not today, not tonight, not ever. Verbal abuse is so common and so natural that it is expected yet it is still abuse and mostly coming from people who claim to love us. Don't allow yourself to be abused in anyway. Call it what it is whether it's machismo or you're the one being the abuser. Help end the cycle of violence.