The weight of these words is amazing. I have learned recently how powerful those words are when you hear the sincerity of them. I have heard these words three times in my lifetime, no, make that twice.
The first time I heard them was last year when a young man I didn't know knelt before me holding my hand in his and apologized for the things the men in my life had done to me. His mother had been sexually abused when she was a child and he was helping promote awareness through his poetry. I was shocked and I felt I was seeing stars as I heard his voice. I held back the tears then yet cried all the way home from Austin.
I am scared and afraid when someone raises their voice in anger or frustration. My instincts pull me away from the situation instantly as fear consumes me. Even if the anger is not directed at me I am still afraid. Someone noticed my fear and apologized. It felt so good that I cannot describe the feeling. I have felt a tightness in my chest ever since as I hold back the tears. Twice in a lifetime is amazing. I didn't know I was worth the effort.
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