Of course our self centered attitudes will be quick to say who cares. I have lived the majority of my life without regret until these recent years here again only because my actions affected me directly. It is now that I realized that those actions affected people more important than myself or my past. The ones who do truly love me took a direct hit from my actions while the other only suffered from a cracked ego including myself. I spoke with a dear friend yesterday whom I love dearly and my heart is in so much pain right now because she is suffering and in so much discomfort. Her will is strong and she fights her way back to reality. I admire her so much and I am anxious to see her as soon as she is able to take visitors. I'm afraid this situation is making me go back into my shell to find solitude, peace and tranquility. I have an urge to cry because my heart is breaking yet I refuse to give in to such weakness. Now is not the time to approach me with pettiness, selfishness and self-centered drama. I determine which characteristics apply by the use of the word I or me. If its said more than once it then fits the previously mentioned criteria and therefore will be ignored. Life is too short to play the waiting game and so many times words are left unsaid for the sake of drama. Perception is often confused with reality which is the lesser of two evils. It is the cause of much love, respect and reality lost and it will continue to suck the life out of those who suck on it like a pacifier. Spit it out and get real; perception is fools gold and reality is what keeps us up at night. Regret matters when it is directed at those who are or were affected by our actions and not ourselves.
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