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I'm not quite sure how to take this or how I should feel. That's the problem with those of us who are not mentally stable when something in our environment changes we don't know how to feel. Routine always feels better because we know what is coming next.
Lately I having been riding the high of my entrepreneurship which has kept my mind pretty busy. This weekend I am applying some of the final touches to it and will be in business soon after that. Startzville.com is where you will be able to find my store (booth) and hopefully that will help get my name out there and I will soon have some followers. It is actually going to be far from my house but it's ok for now. As soon as I am able I will move my business closer to me. My mind is suddenly still due to change and I am worried. It's not about my business instead it's about the rock which has maintained my sanity out in the real world. I have a friend who worked at the Rape Crisis Center who has been an incredible supporter and yesterday she came by to tell me in person that she was let go. Why is not important to me so that isn't an issue because its not my business. She was my only connection to the center. She knew my story of sexual abuse and was there for me when I needed her most. She hugged and held me when I felt the dirtiest. Last year during February I was in so much pain yet had so many presentations I had to make and she was there at each one. She knew I was hurt just didn't know why and it didn't matter, she was there. She has told my story, with my permission time after time. Using me as an example of survival. She is doing well and looking forward to her new job which has absolutely nothing to do with what she did before. She was my V Day connection and now she is gone which means that V Day is gone from my life as well. I couldn't sleep last night thinking of this and have been thinking about it all day today.